As I once again start gearing up to transition jobs, I’ve
been thinking a lot about the transient life I’ve been leading. Every few
months I meet new people and we form a new community complete with our own
inside jokes and memories. My current job is slightly different. I did want to
work here for the community – I live and work with the same group of awesome
ladies, and there’s a networks of four huts total, each with a few people who I
have come to know over the past couple of months. I haven’t forged deep
relationships with the other hut people because I just rarely see them, but we
share an interesting job and there are always stories to share.
The real reason I took this job to be back in Maine, and
bide my time here while I figured out what would come next. After I ended my
life-changing experience of living communally with 28 others at Bear Brook, I
wanted some time to recharge. I wanted a job that was interesting but not
mentally taxing. I wanted to have time to be in touch with my network of
friends spread all across the country. Time to write postcards (one per day, at
least, and I’ve stuck to that!) and even time to write lengthy and important
letters in this cozy mountain hut that I currently call home. But most
importantly, I wanted to be close to people I was already close with. I was
reminded of this last week when I popped by Bar Harbor for a quick 20 hour
visit. I stayed at my friend Eloise’s house, and we stayed up catching up and
chatting about all kinds of things, including how much we cherish time spent
actually visiting people. I do it all—I call, text, snail mail, email, facebook
stalk, snapchat… but really nothing compares to visiting someone in person. To
get a chance to see their room and their collection of trinkets, to hug them,
to see their expressions when they tell you a story, to cook with them (or in
the case of most of my recent friend visits, to eat the delicious food they
cook for you), to bring them gifts from your travels or current home, to go on
a new adventure together.
I feel lucky and stretched thin at the same time, because as
I bounce from job to job and land in various wonderful communities, I feel more
and more desperate to keep in touch. I’m grateful for this time in Maine that
I’ve used to see most everyone I know here, mostly from college. Even if we
just spent an hour together, it was still time in-person. I hadn’t quite
realized until I moved back to New England that I had a really amazing
community here. I can drive to most any part of the state (well, coastal areas
let’s be real) and find an old friend to have coffee with. That’s pretty neat,
and something that takes a while to build. When I move Westward to start my new
job in Idaho, I’ll be missing these Northern friends more than I think I can
realize at this point. I didn’t mean to come back to New England at all, but I
wouldn’t trade my 10 months in New Hampshire (which led to my current winter in
Maine) for the world. This area draws people back, and sometimes they just
never leave. I have always said that I didn’t want to be drawn back to Maine,
that I liked living here for college but I’m outta here and on to new faces and
places. But jeez, I’m just feeling really glad that I ignored Past Annie and
let New England draw me back for another round.
But, I have a lot more places I want to see, so I’m making the decision to cut the cord of familiarity and that rugged rocky Maine beauty and head out to find my next community. I’ll be once again living communally at a remote base and on the trail with a trail crew corps in the Salmon-Challis National Forest in Idaho. The lure of my next chapter in the great West makes it difficult to feel present here in Maine, but I’m going to try. And you can bet that for my last month here, for my trip down to DC, my measly day in DC and on my road trip to Idaho in April I’ll be stopping by to see as many friends as humanly possible!
But, I have a lot more places I want to see, so I’m making the decision to cut the cord of familiarity and that rugged rocky Maine beauty and head out to find my next community. I’ll be once again living communally at a remote base and on the trail with a trail crew corps in the Salmon-Challis National Forest in Idaho. The lure of my next chapter in the great West makes it difficult to feel present here in Maine, but I’m going to try. And you can bet that for my last month here, for my trip down to DC, my measly day in DC and on my road trip to Idaho in April I’ll be stopping by to see as many friends as humanly possible!
No comments:
Post a Comment